What am I doing

‘What am I doing?’ Been asking myself this question a lot lately and I still don’t have the answer.

Jessica FortunesEveryone says I am doing a lot  so why do I feel like nothing is yielding though? Like why?

As my 24th birthday approaches, I can’t help but feel like the last 3 to 4 years of my life hasn’t yielded much and I am getting old. The feeling of there should be more, I should have done this and that or I have should have that and that, has crippled me and made me feel inadequate, I can’t even say I am looking forward to my birthday which is weird but it is how I feel.

I feel off… maybe even weird.

Funny thing is, one minute I feel like I have all together and I am ready to conquer the world, then another minute, I feel everything is crumpling, like why does it have to be this complicated?

These last few weeks, I haven’t been able to do much, didn’t put out any blog post or podcast, barely put up any post on socials, I just been in a disarray and bruh, I hate the feeling.

This was definitely not on my vision board for 2021 but I am letting my self take in all the feeling as they come while reminding myself to breathe, binge watch movies on Netflix, listen to inspiring podcasts about my caring for my mental health and generally taking things slow.

I don’t have much to write today, just a girl in her feelings.